went to Dr. C armed with all my questions and problems and all he wanted to address was that I had to lessen the amount of synthroid I was taking as too much and that is why blood test was so low. this whole thing with how less is more and backwards confuses me to no end - especially when I am hypothyroid because of it! some of the symptoms are exhaustion and confusion and anxiety... duh... but it means I need "less" hormone! when he said he would now put me on 137mcgs of it instead of the 150, I was wha??? also he said the Vit D thing is very important and it works so just do it. of course, when I looked at Vit D Council website they claim I need to get magnesium and something else to make it really absorb and even promoted the brand I got at wegmans - except I did not get the "plus" version that has those things in it. I got the regular one so "should" make sure I get all the other stuff too. crap. Dr, C did not seem to care about that - he and nurse just said to take what I got and DO it. it will work. but he did give me a lab sheet so in six weeks I can have blood work again for both.
weird thing is he said he sent me a script and a note due to the blood work on 8/11 and I still do not have it! so he had to give me another one today and I went to fill it and, of course, they are out of stock at CVS so have to wait one more day. am thinking of shaving off a little of the 150 I have just for tonight. I am SICK of feeling so tired and crabby all the time! then from the crabbiness, I swear that is why "things" seem to be breaking and just horrible so much! the nurse tried to make me feel happy because, according to their scale, I lost 9 pounds since I went there last which was 6 weeks ago or so. she was thrilled and I was just, so? I do not FEEL like I lost 9 pounds, I thought I had gained weight! and besides, the first time I went there, I was 260lbs, then weeks later there I was 275 and now weeks later I am 261 again? shit! I can not win for loosin' it seems like. I hate this. Now, I am afraid to lessen the synthroid because maybe I will gain weight again? WTF?
and there is no one, except Bhuvi, to talk to about it as they are all clueless, which makes sense. do not know anyone who's had this kind of cancer and full thyroid removal so they all say, "oh, they just got to get the amount right and it will all be fine... took my so and so, ,months, but since then it has been fine." well, it may NOT be fine with cancer involved so I am led to believe, but we'll see. even Dr, C, when I said I had to get this together as possible as I am having another surgery next month, looked away and shook his head. sometimes I wonder if I should postpone it. BUT I DO NOT WANT TOO!!!! I want this freaking bad bad knee done so it is like my new one! I just hope, when I start the new level of synthroid tomorrow it will get ok and be good and vit D will be ok by then also.
Dr C said I did not have to do the radiation scan before next Feb. even tho nuclear guys said so. he feels it will be fine to wait until Feb when my knee is healed and I have gotten my hormones ok. I have to be happy about those two things - weight loss and no radiation or at least no low iodine diet until next Feb!!! (even if I have a new deductible!)
I need disability so I do not have to worry about going to work again - that is for sure.... hmmm, maybe too, I will start sitting in sun again for 15 minutes every other day - for the vit D - at least until winter!